Paradise Philippines

march 29, 2006 marked the end of my academic years. yay/huhu. wahahaha. pauso ko lang yan. grad rites was a bit of a joke. haha. imagine: the rites were ongoing and... half of the senior class were out of their seats taking pictures.  that's what you get when you let 800+ hyper active seniors graduate without a single day of practice. hehe.

and april 3, 2006 was my first official day as an adult. waaahh. that's why i can rarely log on now, that's why i aam suffering from blog withrawal syndrome, and that's why i am walking around most of thee time nowadays with my lids half-closed (a result of waking up in the wee hours of the morning just so i'll get to the office on time).

real life is nothing like school. really. i've only been working for three days and i felt the difference about 5 minutes into our orientation. but before that lemme say the good news first: predictably enough, they placed me in a technical support account. webhosting. yay. so its like hitting 3 biggie birds with one stone:

:: high-paying job

:: web-related

:: improve my oral communications and people relation skills

all my personal and professional goals: check, check, check.

so i get to learn all about web hosting. i can't wait for that. but i have to pass the assessment test first. haha. i'm a little nervous about that.

this job is way harder that even i thought. they showed us these target figures and damn, my head ached just looking, so don't ask me to explain it. and it isn't anything like school at all. responsibility is kind of a big deal, now that i'm no longer studying. slacking off is no longer an option, there won't be a next time to pull up your grades or whatever. a simple slip could mean the end of your dreams.

but it's okay. contrary to what most people would expect from me, i really like working.

the bad thing is, it really cuts into the time i spend with sweetheart. i'm so thankful that we are more mature now that we were when we were starting. otherwise, we really would be in trouble.

thanks, sweetheart, for being so supportive. and for being understanding. and for always reassuring me. and for making me feel beautiful.

yu make me miss you so much. i love you. 

ako yun eh.

alam niyo yung walang kwenta? eto yun. etong entry na to. haha.

ibang klase talaga ang pakiramdam pag hindi mo pinipilit.* para kong lumalakad sa ulap. alam niyo yung baduy? ako din yun eh. hahaha. ah, wala na. naloko na.

sensya na prens. i'm entitled to a little kabaduyan every once in a while. wahaha, riz rould probably say that my quota's filled so long ago. hahaha.

well, you all know who's making me happy.

*hindi pilit=kusa. kusa=saya. haha. alam niyo yung adik? oo, ako rin yun.

ngayon, masasabi ko na talagang wala na kong hahanapin pa.

i love you, dy.

[start=channeling the communications skills of a PBB Teen Housemate]

oh my god, like, training is so hard ha, diba? like, there are lots of tools that we, like, have to memorize. omg, so kakaloka. like 10 passwords, like, hello naman daba, and super multi tasking talaga, like hello? i'm naloloka na really here eh.

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hahaha. do teenagers today really talk the way those teen housemates do? i swear, if i were in there and i had to stay inside that friggin house for six friggin weeks, i'm gonna suffer apoplexy from sheer irritation. no kidding.

our instructor's gotta be the nicest one in PS. we are so lucky because other instructors, as we've heard, seem to be fail-happy. he wants everyone to pass, and often gives incentives so that everyone could scrape through. cool.

it's only a matter of knowing what you deserve.

i know a lot of women who, inspite of all the abuse and emotional turmoil being in a not-so-happy relationship brings, still satys in that same position that they are in. they whine, they groan, they complain, they cry. they question why. they throw tantrums. they dwell on these i-am-such-a-martyr-because-i-love-him mode, and then they cry about it.

there are lots of reasons why relationships are unhappy: abusive partners. cheaters. physical/emotional torture. and so on and so forth. believ it or not, i've seen it all. i even experienced most of them. and these experiences, i'm thankful that i had them. they were the pieces of the puzzle that make up the person that i am today.

it's only a matter of knowing what you truly deserve.

that's the best advice i can give to anyone. sure, i've had my share of i-am-such-a-martyr-because-i-love-him phases. lots of it. every kind of cheating anyone could ever imagine, i've experienced that. my ex had a third party: yep. my other ex had two other girlfriends that i found out only after we broke up: yeah. i am the third party: been there. i became a desperate uto-uto for an ex who kept me hanging: done that.

but i've decided that i deserve better. and it made me so much happier than i was.

because now, i've got the best.

GY ako ngayon. miss ko na mga tropapips ko dito! halo sa inyong lahaaaat! amisyu ol!

[[edit: 4:40 am]]

grabe, pumasa ko ng practical assessment. ibang klase filing. ahkentbilibet! saya.

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