first off, CONGRATULATIONS to all the graduates of 2006. 
apir tayo jan.
baccalaureate mass was simply beautiful. imagine the feeling of finally being free, and you stand in the middle of a dark field on a monoblock chair and hundreds of glow lights were dancing in your eyes and hundreds of candles are floating before you.
this moment cannot be bought.
and the fireworks. rai was right. it's seldom when you can see your tuition fee get so high up in the sky. reds. greens. oranges. blues. pinks. those tiny explosions rose before us, and no word could describe the way it felt.
i'm gonna miss my friends. fufu's laugh. tel's paranoia. arjay's growls. ace's cd mania. jc's stories. jo's tuna rice. charsa's high-pitched curses. starr's cute things. jessa's grade consciousness. mitchi's, well, just mitchi. kate's teasing.
and the greatest bestest friends in the world. you. and you.
i'll even miss our professors. i will miss late night chats in the middle of the field with joey. mini stop trips with mitch. quiapo escapades with ace. overnights over at kuya reagan's. my seatmate kim. the freaky comfort rooms. the lights at lover's lane.
everything. i will miss everything.
i've been a lousy blogger this week. but we're so busy these days that i literally had no time to blog. we're writing for a new magazine.
the perks of being a writer: you get to interview big shots and sometimes even celebrities. that is kind of cool, you have to admit. and of course, the glory of seeing your name in print. i'm supposed to interview an award-winning photographer, George Cabig, this afternoon, so wish me luck. just to give you an idea of how totally clueless i am, i thought he was a musician until i looked him up in the internet. haha.
i'm gonna look for a grad dress this afternoon too. so wish me luck for that as well.
i am dying to change my layout (yes, again). i have this layout design floating in my head and i am simply restless.
ah, time. it's eluding me these days.
it's our 7th monthsary last 22nd. time really flies.
7 months. seven months. sometimes i still can't believe it. there were some people way back who said/thought/wished that he was just using me. that i was just fooling around with him. we proved them wrong, sweetie. yay for us. i love you.
[[PROUD GF MOMENT, bring out your barf bags, haha]]
he got published. again. wow. *drools*
he's so smart.
i let you get to me too much. and that ends here. enough said.
sometimes it does you well to examine your shortcomings first before shooting your mouth off. betrayal comes in many forms, and someone's done the worst of it. to me. to the people around us, around him/her. and i've finally had enough. screw me for sticking around for so long, i thought he/she deserved it. i thought wrong, apparently.
i only smile at the things i hear/see about that person, knowing how true they all are. i'm done with inventing excuses for him/her. i'm done protecting him/her.
the funny/scary thing is, i am not mad. i'm simply indifferent. i feel nothing at all towards this situation. not guilt, not pity, not understanding. nothing of what i used to feel before. acceptance is one thing, stupidity is another. i realized that some people remains in the same egocentric forms despite your efforts to be nice and to understand. and the way i see it, the level of our closeness is directly proportional to the amount of damage that he/she will do to me.
and so, i am sparing myself. finally.
