matanda na ko. 
my birthday this year is probably the best birthday in all of my 21 years. 
that's saying something, coz my birthdays are usually.. catastrophic.
last night, my mom came home with a big plastic of my favorite kind of seafood- crabs- as a birthday gift. she said those crabs were homosexual, and i thought she was joking, but it turned out that it was true. although i did ask why they thought they were gay, since they could also be lesbians. she just shrugged and went on eating a crab-arm. those crabs were really something. they flailed and fought and tried to jump out of the pot and i was so scared they'd get away and bite me that i screamed. haha. i overate again, haha, no wonder my jeans no longer fit me.
this morning, sweetheart greeted me with a big smile. 
he gave me three presents: one from tito jojie (a green water bottle that i need for when i start working), one from tita love (a ceramic candle holder in my favorite color with scented oil anf potpourri [?]), and one from him. A pink Care Bear, whom i named Strawberry. she's sitting on my lap right now, and her daddy's right behind me.
and last night, i got a little greeting from my other loved ones. call me a superstitious freak or whatever, but i really do believe that our loved ones who passed away use insects to sometimes send us messages, perhaps to remind us that they are watching over us. a tiny, light brown moth landed on my left arm last night. i guess it was my siblings' way of greeting me (i have four dead siblings, btw. a girl and three boys. i was supposed to be the third child). and sweetheart told me that a firefly also flew over them while they were sleeping last night, and it woke him up. i like to believe that my loved ones are entrusting me to him. this thought really makes me happy. pagbigyan niyo nako, berdey ko naman.
thanks to my classmates and friends and tabulas friends who greeted me. i really, really, appreciate that. thanks guys. i love you all.
PS. i love you sweetheart. no need to make a record. you already did, (almost) seven months ago. 
i'm the happiest girl when i'm with you.
