Paradise Philippines

tama si sweetheart.

minsan, nakakapagod talagang maging mahirap.

as of yesterday afternoon, the number of people who died during the ULTRA stampede reached 74. and all for a few thousand pesos.

watching the Buzz yesterday kind of ticked me off. Sharon Cuneta kept going on about how God might be telling us something, that people should not belive in luck, but to hold on to prayers. from the way she spoke, it seemed like she was saying that what happened to those people was actually their fault because they chose to believe in "luck" rather than our God.

i know that prayers could work wonders, and that we should never forget that. and i know about ultimate purposes of God. that is not my problem. naisip ko lang, sa kalagayan ng mga taong nagpunta sa Ultra para maambunan ng kakarampot na biyaya, sa tingin kaya ni Sharon, hindi pa nila naisip ang magdasal? hindi naman sila pwedeng umasa ng umasa sa dasal. kaya nga sila nandun, dahil gumagawa sila ng paraan para makakuha ng perang pampaaral sa mga anak nila, pampagamot sa kamag-anak, sa kung ano-ano pa. seems to me, the Mega Star failed to realize that not everyone is as rich as she is. that some people had to fall in line for days in hopes that they would win a few measly bucks. that these people were driven to these methods because no other options were available.

open your eyes: i think the real message behind this catastrophe is actually for us to wake up. ganyan na kahirap ang mga pilipino. hindi natin pwedeng isisi sa kanila ang lahat ng kahirapang sinapit nila. sa pinas, pag pinanganak kang mahirap, mas malamang sa hindi, mamamatay ka rin ng mahirap. vicious cycle kumbaga. mahirap ka, hindi ka makakapag aral. hindi ka makakapag aral, wala kang matinong trabaho. walang matinong trabaho, maghihirap ka buong buhay mo.

kasalanan ng lahat kung bakit hindi na nakaahon ang pilipinas sa kahirapan. kasalanan ng mga mamamayan, ng sosyedad, ng gobyerno. may mga taong umaasa na lang sa swerte, sa tulong ng iba. may mga taong walang pakialam sa kapwa nila. may mga mayayamang mapgsamantala. at ang mga politiko na nagpapasarap gamit ang perang ninakaw nila sa kaban ng bayan.

hindi sapat ang basta magdasal na lang. ang dasal ay para sa spiritwal ng pagyaman ng mga tao. nasa Diyos ang awa, pero nasa tao pa rin ang gawa.

hirap kami ngayon. kungkelan walang pera, saka mauubusan ng gas, saka maninigil ang may ari ng bahay, saka ka maraming babayaran, saka ka mawawalan ng cell phone. mapagbiro nga talaga ang buhay.

pero, mayaman pa rin ako. mayaman sa mga bagay na hindi nakikita ng iba. at dahil dyan, hindi ako mawawalan ng rason para maging masaya.

i'm thinking about changing my username.

and the layout. thanks to those who appreciated it. at long las. after 6 months, i finally found the time to change it. and i give Riz (hi, Riz!)full credit for the inspiration of this layout. i really like your planner, and after filling our calendar with totally uneccessary doodles, i'm still not satisfied. so my layout had to be filled with doodles as well. haha.

and the caption at the lower portion beside our pic? i know it's the ultimate kabaduyan. but you can do the craziest things when you're in love. consider it as a manifestation of my love-induced mushiness.

love you, sweetheart.

so after i said i'm going into hiatus a couple of days ago, i am back? who, me, addict?

yes, i did swear multiple times that i will never let myself feel anything towards this person, but you know what? screw you.

it never fails to amuse me seeing people who thinks the world revolves around them. and you know what amuses me more? seeing people who swears up and down that they are fine, yet you will see that very person shooting his/her mouth off, unable to keep their stinky mouths shut.

kain kang asukal. masyado kang bitter.

everything's becoming clearer now. i know and i am certain of what i have to do.

sabi ni switart, sakit ko daw lagi iniisip iba bago sarili ko. siguro nga. maramiraming beses na rin akong napahamak sa kakaisip ko sa iba. in a way, he's right. i am too timid for my own good. maybe this is God's way of telling me that everything, even good things, are supposed to be done in moderation. maybe it's about time i started thinking about myself.

and come to think of it, it im not even thinking of myself, really. kung mayaman lang ako, hindi ko to gagawin. but this is for my mom.

and for the people who are counting on me.

love you, switart.

i don't know how two words such as "thank you" could be enough compensation, but somehow, it makes up for everything.

wait, lemme rephrase that.

i don't know how two words such as a "thank you" from him could be enough compensation, but somehow, it makes up for everything.

for now, i'm holding on to those two words. those, and a bunch of other promising sentences.

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i'll save my longer entries for another time, when i don't have anything else to do. i'm going bonkers coz all these ideas have been swirling in my head for quite sometime and as of now, i have three entries stocked inside my brain. it's either i have the time, but not in the mood or in the mood (like right now) but no time.

i'm beginning to hate school.

so many things to do. website for project (to which i must devote at least two sleepless nights), thesis revisions (which for some reason i developed a sort of block about it though i'm attempting to start it now), other projects and other stuff i really, really, need to straighten out. i just wish the favor blows my way this time.

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on the brighter side, i have some job prospects. none of them are for certain and most would probably fall through, but that's okay. for now at least.

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uso naman eh. (pauso ni arjay)

:: malabo (sa ngayon), pero gusto ko kayong magkatuluyan. pramis.

:: ikaw, mag ingat ka. gumamit ng proteksyon. haha, malande ka pa sakin hayup.

:: sana makapag usap usap na tayo.

:: malapit na berdey natin. babawi ako kasi di kita napuntahan nung grad mo.

:: pag yumaman ako, tutulungan kita.

:: mahal kita. masaya ako sa naging desisyon ko. tama ka. ang importante, malampasan natin lahat ng magkasama. malalampasan natin lahat, alam ko. pano ko alam? basta alam ko lang. haha. labyu.

HALF A YEAR NA KAMI!

wala bang babati jan?? *wink, wink*

ang pinaka bagong pakulo ni GMA: isang EO na nagsasaad na lahat ng taong nagnanais na magpakita sa senado ay kailangan muna ng permiso mula sa Malacañang.

sa isang magasin noon, may nabasa akong artikulo ukol sa pornograpiya. nakasaad sa artikulong iyon na ang isang taong nalululong sa mga masasamang bisyo katulad ng pornograpiya ay parang isang palaka na unti-unting pinakukuluan. kapag ang palaka daw ay basta mo ihinulog sa kumukulong tubig, mabibigla ito at natural, tatalon upang makatakas. ngunit kung ilalagay mo siya sa kaldero ng tubig at dahan-dahan itong pinainit, hindi niya mamamalayan na unti-unti na siyang nilalaga. mamalayan nalang ng kaawa-awang palaka na malapit na siyang maluto at ulamin.

unti-unti ng humihigpit ang kapit ni madam sa posisyon, at unti-unti na ring sinasakal ang mga karapatan ng pilipino. dahan-dahan, halos hindi nga maramdaman. naalala ko nung nag OJT ako, nagpadala ang Malacañang ng isang memorandum na lahat ng editorial ay kailangan munang ipakita sa kanila bago ito ilabas. marahil natakot sila sa kapangyarihan ng media, dali-dali rin nila itong binawi.

ngayon, lahat ng testigo ay kailangang maaprubahan muna. saang sulok ng mundo ka makakakita ng ganun? ngayon, mayroon ng kapangyarihan ang Malacañang na ipitin ang mga testigong maglalagay sa kanila sa alanganin.

at tuloy parin ang pagsulong sa CHA-CHA. ito "raw" ang mas makabubuti para sa bansa. andaming chuva. ang CHA-CHA ay isang paraan upang itago ang pagnanais ng kasalukuyang pangulo at ng kanyang mga alagad upang manatili sa posisyon.

"I'm the best person to lead this country"

aba. yan ang tinatawag na malupitang fighting spirit. makapal pa sa kalyo ko mukha nya ah.

gumising na tayo, bago tayo tuluyang maluto at maging ulam.

at eto lang ang masasabi ko sa sarili ko:

GOOD RIDDANCE.

i love you sweetheart. happy happy six monthsary. no matter what it may seem like to you, i am the happiest girl when you're with me. you're the best for me. you and no one else.

one of my best fair-and-foul weather friends celebrated her birthday last saturday. loved the fun. the singing. the yummmy food.

lately, she's constantly surrounded by undeserving idiots who might have meant well but didn't have enough guts to back up their promises/words. but she's a smart girl. i don't have to tell her what i think (coz most of the time she's thinking the same thing anyway) and what she should do (she'll do it before i even tell her, like i said we think almost identically).

happy bonding time with her dorm mates ate achie, zhess, daye and ate nene. by the time we parted on sunday night, we felt like old friends already. and i love it that sweetheart's getting everyone's approval.

happy birthday jo. thanks for everything.

P.S. Chloebear, i miss you, i wish you were with us. thanks for you greeting. i know you know you're missing all the action here, but i'll rub it in anyway. hehe. soon, we'll catch up. lotsa things to tell you. i'm sure you have a lot to share too.

P.P.S. thanks to everyone who greeted me. love you guys.

"my love has been revitalized. i love you even more. "

sometimes all you need to know is how it feels to lose someone to appreciate him/her even more.

so we're still striving. and God, it feels so good to finally feel again that we're on the same dimension, that we understand each other again. that we're both willing to adjust. that we'll do it simply we want to be with each other.

i love you so much.