nangangati nanaman ang layouting instincts ko.
nyahaha.
Entries for February, 2005
alam niyoFebruary 3, 2005
nagsasawa nanaman ako sa layout ko.
nangangati nanaman ang layouting instincts ko.
nyahaha.
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girlaloosh
nangangati nanaman ang layouting instincts ko.
nyahaha.
February 4, 2005
girlaloosh ang bago kong layout..
abangan...
hindi ako makapagisip.
naeeng eng nako sa *isang malupit na mura*ng thesis ko.
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overrated? maybe.
abangan...
hindi ako makapagisip.
naeeng eng nako sa *isang malupit na mura*ng thesis ko.
February 14, 2005
they say Valentine's day is way overrated, and i must say, they are right-- in some ways.
most of the people who think this way say that people spend so much time and (pointless) energy on this day, when you can give flowers or chocolates or stuffed bears any other day of the year. and they're right. absolutely right.
but then again, i think it's doubly nice if there is one day when a certain significant other showers you with attention just for the sake of making you smile or take you out and treat you like a princess and make your day absolutely perfect.
of course, he could that any other day. or everyday, in fact. but it's like eating, i think. if eat the same thing every day you can't help but resent the food.
anyway, i'm turning TWENTEEN in 2 something months. and i can say that my years have not been wasted. i learned a lot,ESPECIALLY choosing the rightful person who deserves me.
i found this story in cj's site. and i think every girl ought to read this. *wink*
In a brief conversation, a man asked a woman he was pursuing the question: “What kind of man are you looking for?”
She sat quickly for a moment before looking him in the eye asking, “Do you really want to know?”
Reluctantly, he said, “Yes.”
She began to expound… “As a woman in this day and age, I am a position to ask a man what he can do for me that I can’t do for myself. I pay my own bills. I take care of my household without the help of any man… or woman for that matter. I am in the position to ask, ‘What can you bring to the table?’”
The man looked at her. Clearly he thought that she was referring to money. She quickly corrected his thought and stated, “ I am not referring to money. I need something more. I need a man who is striving for perfection in every aspect of life.” He sat back in his chair, folded his arms, and asked her to explain. She said, “I am looking for someone who is striving for perfection mentally because I need conversation and mental stimulation. I don’t need a simple minded man. I am looking for someone who is striving for perfection spiritually because I don’t need to be unequally yoked… believers mixed with unbelievers is a recipe of disaster. I need a man who is striving for perfection financially because I don’t need a financial burden. I am looking for someone who is sensitive enough to understand what I go through as a woman but string enough to keep me grounded. I am looking for someone who I can respect. In order to be submissive, I must respect him. I cannot be submissive to a man who isn’t taking care of his business. I have no problem being submissive… he just has to be worthy. God made woman to be a help mate for man, I can’t help a man if he can’t help himself.” When she finished her spill, she looked at him.
He sat there with a puzzled look on his face. He said, “You are asking a lot.”
She replied, “I’m worth a lot.”
My thoughts exactly. thanks to all the a-holes who crushed my pathetic little heart: you made me see the kind of guys i should not be keeping in my life.
and yeah, the layout's new. i'm not too satisfied with it, to tell y'all the truth. i might change it again. sigh*
the thing with learning webdesign from the net by yourself is that there are just some things you will either not find or you won't understand. so here i am stuck with another flashy-yet-boring/mediocre layout, like all the other flashy-yet-boring/mediocre layouts that i usually do.
i hate being frustrated. it gives me a hollow, gnawing, unsatisfied feeling that i know i will not shake unless i prove to myself that i'm capable of doing whatever it is that i wanted to do.
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do you know
most of the people who think this way say that people spend so much time and (pointless) energy on this day, when you can give flowers or chocolates or stuffed bears any other day of the year. and they're right. absolutely right.
but then again, i think it's doubly nice if there is one day when a certain significant other showers you with attention just for the sake of making you smile or take you out and treat you like a princess and make your day absolutely perfect.
of course, he could that any other day. or everyday, in fact. but it's like eating, i think. if eat the same thing every day you can't help but resent the food.
anyway, i'm turning TWENTEEN in 2 something months. and i can say that my years have not been wasted. i learned a lot,ESPECIALLY choosing the rightful person who deserves me.
i found this story in cj's site. and i think every girl ought to read this. *wink*
In a brief conversation, a man asked a woman he was pursuing the question: “What kind of man are you looking for?”
She sat quickly for a moment before looking him in the eye asking, “Do you really want to know?”
Reluctantly, he said, “Yes.”
She began to expound… “As a woman in this day and age, I am a position to ask a man what he can do for me that I can’t do for myself. I pay my own bills. I take care of my household without the help of any man… or woman for that matter. I am in the position to ask, ‘What can you bring to the table?’”
The man looked at her. Clearly he thought that she was referring to money. She quickly corrected his thought and stated, “ I am not referring to money. I need something more. I need a man who is striving for perfection in every aspect of life.” He sat back in his chair, folded his arms, and asked her to explain. She said, “I am looking for someone who is striving for perfection mentally because I need conversation and mental stimulation. I don’t need a simple minded man. I am looking for someone who is striving for perfection spiritually because I don’t need to be unequally yoked… believers mixed with unbelievers is a recipe of disaster. I need a man who is striving for perfection financially because I don’t need a financial burden. I am looking for someone who is sensitive enough to understand what I go through as a woman but string enough to keep me grounded. I am looking for someone who I can respect. In order to be submissive, I must respect him. I cannot be submissive to a man who isn’t taking care of his business. I have no problem being submissive… he just has to be worthy. God made woman to be a help mate for man, I can’t help a man if he can’t help himself.” When she finished her spill, she looked at him.
He sat there with a puzzled look on his face. He said, “You are asking a lot.”
She replied, “I’m worth a lot.”
My thoughts exactly. thanks to all the a-holes who crushed my pathetic little heart: you made me see the kind of guys i should not be keeping in my life.
and yeah, the layout's new. i'm not too satisfied with it, to tell y'all the truth. i might change it again. sigh*
the thing with learning webdesign from the net by yourself is that there are just some things you will either not find or you won't understand. so here i am stuck with another flashy-yet-boring/mediocre layout, like all the other flashy-yet-boring/mediocre layouts that i usually do.
i hate being frustrated. it gives me a hollow, gnawing, unsatisfied feeling that i know i will not shake unless i prove to myself that i'm capable of doing whatever it is that i wanted to do.
February 16, 2005
do you know why i like Valentines inspite of all its overratedness and over all cheesiness?
aside from the fact that i was and i am and forever will be a hopeless romantic, it's also because Valentine's is just that-- Valentine's. no different from any other festive occasion of the year: a reason to celebrate and to smile and to torture already worn-out cliches.
crap. enough of this. the reason why i especially liked Valentine's this year is the same reason why i can't stop smiling today.
watching The Correspondents the other night made me slump in a state of frustrated depression.
i couldn't believe my eyes. children in Kenya are o malnourished that they die before the age of five. i am absolutely awed by the Filipinos who made helping Kenyans a living. i could never handle holding and feeding and caring for a crying baby one minute only to find it lifeless the next. i would probably die from sheer depression if i ever worked in that kind of place.
also, kids as young as 13 are sexually active (with multiple partners) and before they even got a taste of life they are already infected with HIV.
the episode reminded me of an article i read about the rampant prostitution in Taliban, i think, where there is this one kid, only eight years old when she was sold into a brothel and men bigger than she was continually abused her until her lower back was broken: the lower disks of her spinal cord was disintegrating from all the sexual activities with older men. by the time she was nine ahe was already infected with several kinds of HIV's.
i don't know how this post will help, i think maybe it won't help at all. but for now, this is the only way i can make a difference: bringing awareness through my words.
i kept seeing the picture of kenyans with their ribs poking out of their skin: the map of their hunger and of their pain. and the picture of the little 8-year-old girl who lost life before it was her own and whose spirit died before her body did.
where does it stop? if this is the kind of world our future has, i'm not sure i want my kids to live here.
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happy happy happy
aside from the fact that i was and i am and forever will be a hopeless romantic, it's also because Valentine's is just that-- Valentine's. no different from any other festive occasion of the year: a reason to celebrate and to smile and to torture already worn-out cliches.
crap. enough of this. the reason why i especially liked Valentine's this year is the same reason why i can't stop smiling today.
watching The Correspondents the other night made me slump in a state of frustrated depression.
i couldn't believe my eyes. children in Kenya are o malnourished that they die before the age of five. i am absolutely awed by the Filipinos who made helping Kenyans a living. i could never handle holding and feeding and caring for a crying baby one minute only to find it lifeless the next. i would probably die from sheer depression if i ever worked in that kind of place.
also, kids as young as 13 are sexually active (with multiple partners) and before they even got a taste of life they are already infected with HIV.
the episode reminded me of an article i read about the rampant prostitution in Taliban, i think, where there is this one kid, only eight years old when she was sold into a brothel and men bigger than she was continually abused her until her lower back was broken: the lower disks of her spinal cord was disintegrating from all the sexual activities with older men. by the time she was nine ahe was already infected with several kinds of HIV's.
i don't know how this post will help, i think maybe it won't help at all. but for now, this is the only way i can make a difference: bringing awareness through my words.
i kept seeing the picture of kenyans with their ribs poking out of their skin: the map of their hunger and of their pain. and the picture of the little 8-year-old girl who lost life before it was her own and whose spirit died before her body did.
where does it stop? if this is the kind of world our future has, i'm not sure i want my kids to live here.
February 17, 2005
6 reasons why i am happy:
* two wishes were granted all in one day
* i was with a the person who never failed to make me smile for 5 hours last Tuesday
* i just found out that 232 people have added me as their friend
* in spite of the fact that i wrote the chapter 2 of our thesis the day before submission (meaning it was done in a state of severe pressure), we got a grade 19/20 (hep hep hurrah)
* in spite of the fact that i'm not satisfied with my layout, people kept commenting how nice it is.
* i'm in love (again. for real this time)
speaking of our thesis, i'm going to post chapter 2 here (the diskette which contains chapter one was for some freaking reason not working so that means i have to type it all over again before i can post it here). i hope some of you kind, intelligent people *wink* would take the time to read or even just scan it. we really need your help.
comments/suggestions/constructive criticiscm/ extra information will be highly appreciated.
but please remember that the paper was done the day before submission, so please, please tolerate/forgive typo/grammatical errors or poor construction or general lousiness or whatever.
so here it is. Chapter 2 Thesis. our topic is about the themes of blogs.
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bobo
* two wishes were granted all in one day
* i was with a the person who never failed to make me smile for 5 hours last Tuesday
* i just found out that 232 people have added me as their friend
* in spite of the fact that i wrote the chapter 2 of our thesis the day before submission (meaning it was done in a state of severe pressure), we got a grade 19/20 (hep hep hurrah)
* in spite of the fact that i'm not satisfied with my layout, people kept commenting how nice it is.
* i'm in love (again. for real this time)
speaking of our thesis, i'm going to post chapter 2 here (the diskette which contains chapter one was for some freaking reason not working so that means i have to type it all over again before i can post it here). i hope some of you kind, intelligent people *wink* would take the time to read or even just scan it. we really need your help.
comments/suggestions/constructive criticiscm/ extra information will be highly appreciated.
but please remember that the paper was done the day before submission, so please, please tolerate/forgive typo/grammatical errors or poor construction or general lousiness or whatever.
so here it is. Chapter 2 Thesis. our topic is about the themes of blogs.
February 21, 2005
nabobobohan ako sa sarili ko.
i'd rather not elaborate. it's just the way i'm feeling right now.
feeling worthless is something i cannot tolerate.
kaya ko to.
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oh please
i'd rather not elaborate. it's just the way i'm feeling right now.
feeling worthless is something i cannot tolerate.
kaya ko to.
February 22, 2005
spare me from myself.
what would happen if one day i failed to make you smile? do you know how scared i am to fail meeting your expectations? what if the picture of me you had in your mind is not me at all? would you leave me then?
you say you love me because i make you happy. what would happen if i ceased doing so? can you accept the rotting flesh which festered beneath my candy surface? is the whole package a part of this?
are you really, as i perceived, a miracle? or are another mirage who would in time rip out my already shattered heart?
why is it that whenever i'm happy, no one's happy for me?
they were right. time does heal all wounds.
but it never erased the scars.
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wala lang
what would happen if one day i failed to make you smile? do you know how scared i am to fail meeting your expectations? what if the picture of me you had in your mind is not me at all? would you leave me then?
you say you love me because i make you happy. what would happen if i ceased doing so? can you accept the rotting flesh which festered beneath my candy surface? is the whole package a part of this?
are you really, as i perceived, a miracle? or are another mirage who would in time rip out my already shattered heart?
why is it that whenever i'm happy, no one's happy for me?
they were right. time does heal all wounds.
but it never erased the scars.
Currently feeling: semi-depressed
February 26, 2005
got this thing from jonas.
31 things about me...
Message:
1. YOUR HOROSCOPE?
pisces
2. SiNGLE OR TAKEn?
happily taken.
3. iN LoVe?
hell yeah
4. HAVE YOU EVER BEEN SERIOUSLY
HURT BY THE PERSON YOU LOVEd?
multiple times
5. WHAT WOULD BE YOUR REASON
iF YOU TURNED SUiCiDAL?
i won't commit suicide for any reason at all. not my style.
6. iS SUiCiDE REALLY KiLLiNG
YOURSELF?
depends on what your definition of dead is.
7. COUNTRY OR CLASSiC?
country
8. PREFER CUTE/iDiOT OR
SMART/UGLY?
neither.
9. ARE YOU iN A STABLE RELATiONSHiP
WiTH YOUR BF/GF?
too early to say..
10. YOU`D EXPECT A TEXT MESSAGE
USUALLY
FROM:
anya otan
11. HAVE A BEST FRiEND THAT iS iN THE
OPPOSiTE GENDER?
i used to.
12. WHAT DO YOU LiKE DOiNG WHEN
YOU`RE DEPRESSED?
go online (duh), design sa webpages, draw, eat..
13. CHEERFUL OR BORiNG?
cheerful
14. DESCRiBE A PERFECT DATE
a perfect date, for me, is when you sit surrounded by many people and yet it's like there's no one else, and you're so happy you wished that time would stop. mushy, i know.
15. EVER WONDERED WHY NOBODY
KNOWS WHY THE SKY iS BLUE?
why would i wonder about such a thing?
16. EVER BEEN HURT BY LOVE?
i think this is the same question in no. 4
17. WiLL YOU EVER MAKE THE SAME
MiSTAKE AGAiN?? WITH LOVE??
i don't think so.
18. EVER HATED ANYONE LiKE HELL?
yep
19. DO YOU DO ANYTHiNG WHEN A
PERSON BREAKS UP WiTH YOU AFTER
ONE DAY?
never happened to me
20. GiVE ONE WORD THAT BEST
DESCRiBES
WHAT YOU`RE FEELiNG NOW
crazy
21. DO YOU BELiEVE iN YOURSELF?
yep
22. EVER PHYSiCALLY HURT YOURSELF?
i did one time..
23. EVER VERBALLY HURT YOURSELf
many times..
24. MOTTO iN LiFE
..
25. HAVE YOU EVER DOUBTED THAT
SOMETiMES?
..
26. HAVE YOU EVER HAD FEELiNGS
ABOUT A FRiEND FROM THE OPPOSiTE
GENDER?
of course
27. iF YES, WHAT DiD YOU DO ABOUT iT?
nothing.
28. iS FAME & MONEY THE MOST
iMPORTANT THiNGS iN YOUR LiFE?
no. what kind of stupid question is this??
29. DO YOU MAKE ANY MOVEMENTS OR
SOUNDS
WHEN YOU`RE SLEEPiNG?
my mom says so
30. ARE YOU DiFFiCULT TO WAKE UP?
no
31. HOW OFTEN DO YOU SLEEP?
whenever i feel like it
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venting time
31 things about me...
Message:
1. YOUR HOROSCOPE?
pisces
2. SiNGLE OR TAKEn?
happily taken.
3. iN LoVe?
hell yeah
4. HAVE YOU EVER BEEN SERIOUSLY
HURT BY THE PERSON YOU LOVEd?
multiple times
5. WHAT WOULD BE YOUR REASON
iF YOU TURNED SUiCiDAL?
i won't commit suicide for any reason at all. not my style.
6. iS SUiCiDE REALLY KiLLiNG
YOURSELF?
depends on what your definition of dead is.
7. COUNTRY OR CLASSiC?
country
8. PREFER CUTE/iDiOT OR
SMART/UGLY?
neither.
9. ARE YOU iN A STABLE RELATiONSHiP
WiTH YOUR BF/GF?
too early to say..
10. YOU`D EXPECT A TEXT MESSAGE
USUALLY
FROM:
anya otan
11. HAVE A BEST FRiEND THAT iS iN THE
OPPOSiTE GENDER?
i used to.
12. WHAT DO YOU LiKE DOiNG WHEN
YOU`RE DEPRESSED?
go online (duh), design sa webpages, draw, eat..
13. CHEERFUL OR BORiNG?
cheerful
14. DESCRiBE A PERFECT DATE
a perfect date, for me, is when you sit surrounded by many people and yet it's like there's no one else, and you're so happy you wished that time would stop. mushy, i know.
15. EVER WONDERED WHY NOBODY
KNOWS WHY THE SKY iS BLUE?
why would i wonder about such a thing?
16. EVER BEEN HURT BY LOVE?
i think this is the same question in no. 4
17. WiLL YOU EVER MAKE THE SAME
MiSTAKE AGAiN?? WITH LOVE??
i don't think so.
18. EVER HATED ANYONE LiKE HELL?
yep
19. DO YOU DO ANYTHiNG WHEN A
PERSON BREAKS UP WiTH YOU AFTER
ONE DAY?
never happened to me
20. GiVE ONE WORD THAT BEST
DESCRiBES
WHAT YOU`RE FEELiNG NOW
crazy
21. DO YOU BELiEVE iN YOURSELF?
yep
22. EVER PHYSiCALLY HURT YOURSELF?
i did one time..
23. EVER VERBALLY HURT YOURSELf
many times..
24. MOTTO iN LiFE
..
25. HAVE YOU EVER DOUBTED THAT
SOMETiMES?
..
26. HAVE YOU EVER HAD FEELiNGS
ABOUT A FRiEND FROM THE OPPOSiTE
GENDER?
of course
27. iF YES, WHAT DiD YOU DO ABOUT iT?
nothing.
28. iS FAME & MONEY THE MOST
iMPORTANT THiNGS iN YOUR LiFE?
no. what kind of stupid question is this??
29. DO YOU MAKE ANY MOVEMENTS OR
SOUNDS
WHEN YOU`RE SLEEPiNG?
my mom says so
30. ARE YOU DiFFiCULT TO WAKE UP?
no
31. HOW OFTEN DO YOU SLEEP?
whenever i feel like it
February 28, 2005
marami akong kinaiinisan ngayon, at kailangan ko ng outlet (saan pa ba, edi dito lang) dahil kung hindi ko to malalabas eh malamang certified praning nako bukas.
*badtrip ako dahil itong lecheng semester na to ang pinakamahirap na semester na naranasan ko sa buong buhay ko. nakaka bobo. o bobo talaga ako. ewan. basta. badtrip ako.
*bad trip ako dahil may mga taong kala mo pagkagagaling na pilit ba namang inaadvertise ang mga sirili nila, naisip ko tuloy yung time na sumali ako sa theater group noon, at dahil sa nakikilala na kami at lagi kaming may special treatment, lumaki ng MEJO ang mga ego namin at pinagalitan kami ni kuya Jayson at sinabi niyang : "wag niyong isiping na mgaling na kayo dahil marami pang mas magaling sa inyo. hindi lang sila nag audition"
*bad trip ako sa mga taong alam na nga na may mali sila sa sarili nila aba eh hindi pa nila gawan ng paraan na mabago, at walang ginawa kundi magreklamo
*badtrip ako sa mga taong pag may kailangan sayo ambait, pag nakuha na aba eh parang walang nangyari, hindi man lang nagpapasalamat
*badtrip ako dahil sumsakit na ulo ko sa mga lessons namin
*bad trip ako sa mga babaing kala mo laging aagawan ng boyfriend, na mapalapit ka lang ng 3 feet sa boyfriend nya eh titig=tigan ka na ng masama
*basta bad trip ako
ay ambot. wish ko lang hindi ako nadadala masyado. buti nalang hindi ako tulad ng iba na 3 taon na eh affected pa rin, kaya baka bukas lang malimutan ko na na badtrip ako.
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grade namin sa chapter 3: 14.2/15. pede na. considering that it was only two pages and, as always, it was done day before the deadline.
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*badtrip ako dahil itong lecheng semester na to ang pinakamahirap na semester na naranasan ko sa buong buhay ko. nakaka bobo. o bobo talaga ako. ewan. basta. badtrip ako.
*bad trip ako dahil may mga taong kala mo pagkagagaling na pilit ba namang inaadvertise ang mga sirili nila, naisip ko tuloy yung time na sumali ako sa theater group noon, at dahil sa nakikilala na kami at lagi kaming may special treatment, lumaki ng MEJO ang mga ego namin at pinagalitan kami ni kuya Jayson at sinabi niyang : "wag niyong isiping na mgaling na kayo dahil marami pang mas magaling sa inyo. hindi lang sila nag audition"
*bad trip ako sa mga taong alam na nga na may mali sila sa sarili nila aba eh hindi pa nila gawan ng paraan na mabago, at walang ginawa kundi magreklamo
*badtrip ako sa mga taong pag may kailangan sayo ambait, pag nakuha na aba eh parang walang nangyari, hindi man lang nagpapasalamat
*badtrip ako dahil sumsakit na ulo ko sa mga lessons namin
*bad trip ako sa mga babaing kala mo laging aagawan ng boyfriend, na mapalapit ka lang ng 3 feet sa boyfriend nya eh titig=tigan ka na ng masama
*basta bad trip ako
ay ambot. wish ko lang hindi ako nadadala masyado. buti nalang hindi ako tulad ng iba na 3 taon na eh affected pa rin, kaya baka bukas lang malimutan ko na na badtrip ako.
[[ edit ]]
grade namin sa chapter 3: 14.2/15. pede na. considering that it was only two pages and, as always, it was done day before the deadline.
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