Paradise Philippines

before anything else, a few updates:

~ mom and i bought the entire season of Lovers in Paris. hehe. adik. my favorite scene: when Vivian sang for Carlo. i've watched that for four times so far and it still makes me laugh.

~ i have a couple of pure bred Japanese Spitz pups, but i'm not really sure if they're pure coz according to the site they're supposed to be all white but Chuckie, the boy, is black and white. i hope i can post a pic of them soon.

~ i am taking a break from blogskins

well, it's nice to be back.

we broke up.

even though i feel really bad and i miss him from time to time, i cannot say that i regret my desicion. i just hope that everything works out..

funny, i remember writing in my journal that i never seem to keep a boyfriend long enough for Valentines. it seems as if i'm correct.

anyway, balik na ang mangungulit sainyo! hehe.

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me, chuckie and kimmi


chuckie and kimmi with ninang hanne

may sakit si kimmi. masyado kasing mahaba ang pilik mata nila natusok tuloy yung mata niya.. ginamot namin ni mommy pinutol namin yung pilik mata. mejo nakakadilat na siya ngayon pero para na siyang may cataracts.. lab na lab ko ang mga puppies ko. sana gumaling na ang mata ni kimmi. naiiyak ako pag nakikita ko siyang malungkot.

i've never felt so free in my whole life. people would probably say that i'm stupid to let go of someone who loves me so much, but let me just put it this way:

not many people can tell the difference between "i love him" and "i'm in love with him".

i can.

we (hanne and i) are very much elated because we are one of the few groups who got a high grade for our Chapter One thesis. i wanna post it but this pc rental place doesn't allow diskettes so maybe next post..

our topic: themes of web logs. i know that i can count on all of you for your help and support *ehem, wink*, i have some pretty good ideas on how to conduct this research in a "scholarly" way. hehe.

nagsisimula ng maging makamundo ang puppy kong si Chuckie. nirereyp na niya si Kimmi. nahuli ko siya kanina. minsan nga pati kamay ko nirereyp niya. kadiri. kung naging tao si Chuckie, manyak ang tawag sa kanya.

mukhang mapapadali ang pagmumultiply nila. hehe.

special discounts to my tabulas friends para sa mga to-be puppies ni chuckie and kimmi.

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i gave chloe's site a little renovation. simple lang. pero natuwa naman ako sa kinalabasan niya.

next time na ako magbabasa ng ibang entries. magtatime na ko dito.

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sa lahat ata ng "ouch" na nasabi ko sa buhay ko, eto na ang pinakamasakit.

upang lubusang maintindihan ang kwentong ito, kilalanin muna natin ang dating magkasintahan na sina Lawrence* at Cielo*. nagkahiwalay sina Lawrence at Cielo nung October 4, 2003 matapos ang tatlong buwan ng pagsasama. makalipas ang may isang taon, muli silang nag usap. tunghayan natin ang kanilang usapan.

*= names have been changed

Lawrence: mahal mo pa ba ko?
Cielo: bakit, mahal mo pa ba ko?
Lawrence: medyo. kaya lang hindi na pwede.
Cielo: kung mahal mo ko bakit mo ko iniwan?
Lawrence: hindi kita iniwan ang sabi ko kailangan ko lang ng time! eh bakit naghanap ka na ng iba? bakit mo ko tinuluyan?
Cielo: ang kapal mo, kayo na nung naging kame no. iniwan moko para balikan siya.
Lawrence: hindi pa kami nun. matagal pa bago naging kame.
Cielo: talaga lang ah. kelan?
Lawrence: mga one month pa.
Cielo: *sa isip: tangna parang ang tagal nun ah* .....


ngayon, pagmasdang mabuti ang sumusunod na litrato na nanggaling sa friendster ni Lawrence*:

tignan mabuti ang date nyan. October 6. dalawang araw matapos maghiwalay si Lawrence* at Cielo*.

isang buwan pala ah.

bakit kaya kahit na ineexpect mo na, kahit alam mo na na nagsisinungaling ang isang tao, pag napatunayan mo, hindi mo padin maiwasan masaktan?

ah leche. totoo na to.

itigil na ang kahibangan ni Ciel kay Lawrence.

Currently feeling: durog

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eto mas ouch.



punyeta. pasensya na. namisunderstood ko yung testi. (refer to previous entry). sana hindi na ako nagimbestiga. leche. ang hirap maging journ student. nasanay ka sa "quest for truth", kaya lahat inaalam.

naka first degree ang account ng girl na to. pero nakita ko parin. i have my ways.

magsi upo na kayo, at tignan ang sumusunod na nangggaling sa friendster ni Aritha*.

ang galing diba. ang ibig sabihin nyan, ang namagitan kina Lawrence* at Cielo* ay isang malakaing kasinungalingan. ano yun, nanaginip nalang ba sila at hindi pala sila naghiwalay ni Aritha*? anong kakupalan ba yan? eh ano nalang ang papel ni Cielo*, wala, extra lang?



last na to promise. di na ko maguupdate uli tungkol sa soap opera nila Lawrence* at Cielo*.

sinusumpa ko yan.



*=names have been changed.

Currently feeling: galit na galit na galit

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One is loved because one is loved. No reason is needed for loving."
-The Alchemist

i beg to disagree. everything has a reason.

you fall in love with someone because of his smile. because of the ways he makes you laugh. the ways he makes you think.

you fall in love with someone because of his grace. because you like the way the moon casts his shadow in the pavement, or how his voice makes the loveliest sound in the world.

you fall in love with someone because he is what he is. you fall in love because he is clumsy. you fall in love because of the way he shouts when he gets mad. you even fall in love because of his lies.

you fall in love with his gestures. you fall in love with his eyes. you fall in love because of everything he does.

at the beginning it may seem like ther'es no reason. but in the end, it was everything that made you fall.

enough. this topic is too saturated. i'm making myself vomit.

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yesterday during our hour and a half break Doi, Hanne, and I went to this little coffee/restaurant/bar hangout near UST, called the Cafe Dapits.

Cafe Dapits could be decieving if you will not explore the entire shop. the first floor is mostly quiet, it could even be an ideal place for studying: cool, quiet, and snacks at the ready.

but the second floor is an entirely different scene.

yesterday while we were hanging out in the second floor of Cafe Dapits, i was kind of amused at the way everybody seemed to know everyone else: for once the pulsating music and all around smoke did not make me cringe. contrary to that i actually started to enjoy myself watching everyone greet everybody else, most of them drnking and eating and smoking.

and then, all of a sudden, this loud countdown cheer started at the table next to us, and looking over, we saw a couple kissing in the corner with their friends egging them on.

what actually surprised me was not the, uh, event itself, but the realization that i was no longer shocked to witness such a scene. what would make me look away with disgust before i now watch with curiosity and amusement.

not that i would ever do anything like that. and not every thomasian behaves that way, let me clear that. but i actually found myself smiling and laughing, finally chilling out and enjoying the last few months of my teenage years.

i guess what happened this past year made me realize the thing i still have not experienced. does this mean that my values have gone awry? not necessarily. i've been with friends who smokes, drinks and flirts and somehow i managed to avoid doing those things, and i know i can continue doing that.

doesn't matter what the people around me does. i know i'm responsible enough.

third year is HELLISH. i think i'm gonna flunk. i'm flunking my effing classes.. damn.

well, what the hell! why on earth do i need to study Political Dynamics anyway? i hate politics! i can't even stand hearing it on the news, let alone study a 3-inch book of it!

sheesshh.. i've gotta get a grip on myself..

badtrip talga poldy.
badtrip talga poldy.
badtrip talga poldy.

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