Paradise Philippines

when the thing you most desire is finally in your hands, you will realize that it's not what you really wanted after all..

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hindi gumagana yung gusto kong ipalit na template.

sakit na ng ulo ko.

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natapos na rin ang layout na gusto ko! hihihi.

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finally i can start putting up posts again.. *sigh*

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i can't put up posts coz everytime i try i am lured away by the temptation to edit my layout.

i'm beginning to think my blog's starting to hypnotize me, and that it's beginning to own me instead of the other way around.

harhar.

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i hate end-of-term days.

too much pressure. too much paperwork.

good thing i'm not really interested in being a journalist or else i would be sufferring overwhelming insecurities like some of my mates.

but that's a story for another entry. right now, i really need to concentrate and finish the damn report i have.

*deep beath. deep breath*

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i mentioned in my previous post that i am not really interested in journalism.

i'm beginning to realize that my eenie-minnie-mynie-mo method of choosing my course during my senior year is a mistake. what i really wanted to take up was photography, but i couldn't find the college that is offering this course. since i was ignorant enough to suppose that newscasting and journalism are synonymous, i chose my current course.

not that i regret it, not really. it's just that, my heart isn't really in what i'm studying (cheesy much?).

journalism taught me much, things that in the long run, might actually be useful to me in a way or another. i've learned to love the English language as if it was my natural tongue. i've learned to be critical. add that to my already cynical mind, you will not be surprised to find that since i took up this course, i am yet to lose an argument.

i don't really know what i want to do after i left school. i only have a school year and a semester to go before i face the "real world" and i don't know what kind of future awaits me outside school. since i believe that a person's success lies outside academical achievement (and also because i am an extremely lazy girl), i've never really bothered to raise my grades beyond the average-above average measure.

everyone tells me i should go and be a lawyer, cause of my, uh, abilities to talk my way out of any trouble andto wittily win arguments. i tried to, like in the book A Little Princess, "make up my mind to do it", but everytime i think about it, i feel this heavy, unsatisfied feeling. and i know exactly why. i HATE politics. and the thought of spending my whole life tangling with crooks and laws which politicians themselves does not bother to obey makes me want to instictively grab the nearest object and throw it away.

i want to have a simple business, or something that has to do with art or kids. now THAT would make me happy.

anyway, my classmate are all complaining of feeling inadequate cause we are all out for the same dreams, etcetera, etcetera, but since i don't really wnat to be a journalist anyway, i've managed to keep my spirits up somehow.

when did i ever seriously bother with anything anyway?

Currently listening to: teenage dirtbag
Currently feeling: antok

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there are some people here in tabulas that although i don't personally know, i am beginning to grow fond of them in a lot of ways..

tal- an incredibly sweet girl na sobrang tyaga sa pag cocomment. lahat yata ng blog na napuntahan ko eh may comment niya. i'm beginning to see her as a deep and intelligent girl that is only starting to explore her life..
pariwara-the person who taught me how to change my bg, and got me started on my love for layouting.
iggy-super pretty. enough said.
ryza-an incredibly talented fourteen-year-old. wise beyond her years.
soulfly-a great, sensitive poet.
kilawinguwak-although he disagrees with most of my posts,i like him all the same

there. and i love everyone else here, it's just that these people have left their marks in my mind.. *wink*

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kaya pinalitan ko na yung bg image ng links ko. hmp.

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ano kaya kung gawin kong raket ang pag layout ng websites? heehee..

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sa tagalog, usapang tite.

o diba, title palang, nakakatawag pansin na.

ito ang usapan sa isang segment sa Kontrobersyal kagabi. title yan ng isang bagong play na kinabibilangan nila Paolo Paraiso, Angelu de Leon, Christian Vasquez, Luis Alandi, at iba pang hindi ko na matandaan.

astig. aaminin ko, nung una, naisip ko, pati ba naman sa theater may pornography na rin? pero nung pinanood ko, naisip ko na may point rin sila kahit papano.

sabi nila, bakit daw bastos na tinuturing kapag ang sinasabi ang salitang tite, o kike? samantalang kung penis o vagina, ayus lang.

tama sila. ano bang masama? tite. kike. parehas lang naman ang ibig sabihin nun pag inenglish diba?

problematic kasi ang society natin. ipokrito ang mga tao. pa-prudish effect ba.

siguradong manggagalaiti nanaman ang mga religious groups. makamundo, sasabihin nila. pero ano ba naman ang palabas kung walang kontrobersya? nakakatulong pa nga yun sa pagbenta ng tickets. baka nga producer pa mismo ang magsimula ng kontrobersya.

ako, naappreciate ko ang "literary/artistic approach" na sinasabi nila.

hindi ko lang alam kung ang mga manonood ba eh dahil sa "literary/artistic purposes" o dahil lang sa gusto nilang makakita ng mga tite.

*boggles the mind*

Currently listening to: the reason
Currently feeling: amused

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"tiis ka muna anak, matatapos din mga problema natin.."

"tiis tiis ka lang beh, matututunan ko din dalin yung relationship natin.."

everyone seems to be asking rather a lot of "pagtitiis". i wonder how long i would last.

Currently listening to: i wanna know
Currently feeling: kei naman

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at sa lahat narin ng gustong magpalit ng background.

alam mo jonas kahit salbahe ka sakin eh mahal kita at mabait ako. sobrang bait ko kaya tuturuan kitang maglagay ng bg.

1. punta ka sa styles ng contol panel mo, freak.
2. click mo yung templating, faggot.
3. click mo yung build your own template page, ungas.
4. may option dun pumili ka nalang ng template na gusto mong iedit tapos iclick mo yung generate html. frigid.
5. lalabas dun yung mga codes, hanapin mo yung < body > tag. jologs.
6. i paste mo sa ilalim ng tag na yan < body background="url of image" >. tae.
7. tapos click mo create template. payatot.

DISCLAIMER: mga kaibigan hindi kame magkaaway ni jonas. ganyan lang kami magmahalan.

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is that you start wanting them for your own. *sniff*

i've just finished arjay's tabulas. i wish it was mine. *double sniff*

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ang weird pala ng feeling pag naguusap yung ex mo at ang boyfriend mo.

yun bang ilang na ilang ka, pero parang natatawa ka, pero hindi ka makatawa kasi wala namang nakakatawa?

pero pramis, hanggang ngayon pag naaalala ko yung image na naguusap sila, natatawa talaga ako.

weird.

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me, the queen of i-don't-give-damn, miss little happy-go-lucky, am feeling pressured. imagine that. do you know what this means? yep. it means that we have so much work to do that i, the nothing-can-bring-me-down girl, is feeling nervous.

that's how serious the situation is.

THINGS TO DO:

* feature article
* lit journ project
* literature term paper
* website layout for two subjects
* drawing for filipino report
* study about 300 or so pages for oral exams in Filipino
* study all the other subjects for final exam

my proffessors have absolutely no pity. what an effing course.

and i'm really scared of disappointing my groupmates, what if i can't do a good enough job on the layout of our webpage?

*deep breath*

Currently feeling: ngarag

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